Why I Write

If George Orwell was to ask me "Why do you, Caroline Close, write?" I wouldn't be able to answer him right away.  When it comes down to it, there is not one single reason why I write, which I think is the same for almost everyone.  Sometimes, writing feels like a requirement.  I have to write for the teacher when I'd rather tell him/her in words or I have to write my point down in words because I don't know how I would say it out loud.  I think the main reason I write though is what Orwell has coined "aesthetic enthusiasm."  When I write, its all about sharing what I think is important in the world.  Writing is my way of remembering without missing out on any detail.  Writing is my way of telling everyone exactly what I think without them having to know at all.  Writing is my refuge from the storm of my emotions when I'm afraid they might take over.  Writing is my passionate love affair with words that makes other people on the outside cringe and it is the evolution of me as I grow, learn, and mature.  I write because sometimes there is no other way to express me.  Writing makes me feel smart, passionate, and proud.